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420blazeit) wrote2019-04-09 12:08 pm
420blazeit) wrote2019-04-09 12:08 pm
🎮 INBOX.
—
I'm not here right now,
but leave a message and I'll get back to you asap!
♥ D.Va"
I'm not here right now,
but leave a message and I'll get back to you asap!
♥ D.Va"
I already told him that as soon as things were fixed I wouldn't put my soul back in and kill myself, even under supervision.
You told me killing yourself would be stress relief for your current trauma.
I'm talking about all the previous stuff you're leaving unaddressed.
What if you didn't have to worry about suffering in excruciating pain instead of dying for a while? Who would it hurt?
I'm talking about all the previous stuff you're leaving unaddressed.
What if you didn't have to worry about suffering in excruciating pain instead of dying for a while? Who would it hurt?
I told him that. About how I wanted to die as soon as I had the chance and he expressed... ah, he didn't seem too thrilled, and when I told him I would he was relieved. I'll be alright.
And having that ability has helped me more than not, so I'm not going to unbuy it just so I can have a peaceful death. It's not like I hadn't been able to die in previous games before this happened.
And, honestly, as much as it fucken sucked... [ shrugs. ] like thinking about it isn't the most pleasant thing in the world to do, but there's little that can top some of the shit I went through, so... like, what are they going to do, kill me some more. [ rolls her eyes. ] Big woop.
And having that ability has helped me more than not, so I'm not going to unbuy it just so I can have a peaceful death. It's not like I hadn't been able to die in previous games before this happened.
And, honestly, as much as it fucken sucked... [ shrugs. ] like thinking about it isn't the most pleasant thing in the world to do, but there's little that can top some of the shit I went through, so... like, what are they going to do, kill me some more. [ rolls her eyes. ] Big woop.
I guess this is what you had in mind . . .
[ Ok how can he resist coming over to the bed. He cannot. ]
[ Ok how can he resist coming over to the bed. He cannot. ]
You're doing that thing again.
Saying something is painful and then trying to act like it's no big deal.
Saying something is painful and then trying to act like it's no big deal.
Because, yes, Intensity, it sucked. Dying sucks.
But do it enough freaking times and it starts to just... become blah. I'm starting to feel numb to so much shit here and sometimes that feels worse!
But do it enough freaking times and it starts to just... become blah. I'm starting to feel numb to so much shit here and sometimes that feels worse!
[ He puts one knee on the bed, leaning in close. ]
I think you're making it difficult for anyone else's gifts to compare this year.
I think you're making it difficult for anyone else's gifts to compare this year.
I did put a fair amount of thought into this. [ chuckles and leans the rest of the way; ghosting her lips over his. ]
Sponsored by Mountain Dew® & Doritos®; ...
im ashamed to have to admit that, yes, thats exactly what happened
his letter completely destroyed me in, like, the best way possible,
but getting destroyed is still getting destroyed
i can deal with pain better than i can deal with feelings&emotions
im going to be brutally honest with you,
but that feeling is never going to go away
and you're always going to be subconsciously sizing yourself up against other people
but fuck other people
i know its going to be easier said than done but forget about them and only focus on you, and what makes you happy
you need to cherish all the time you have with some of these people, because it could just, one day, POOF be gone
all relationships start out as friends
so dont ding yourself there!
and, cmon, i doubt hes writing everybody!
so i think you should :)
im ashamed to have to admit that, yes, thats exactly what happened
his letter completely destroyed me in, like, the best way possible,
but getting destroyed is still getting destroyed
i can deal with pain better than i can deal with feelings&emotions
im going to be brutally honest with you,
but that feeling is never going to go away
and you're always going to be subconsciously sizing yourself up against other people
but fuck other people
i know its going to be easier said than done but forget about them and only focus on you, and what makes you happy
you need to cherish all the time you have with some of these people, because it could just, one day, POOF be gone
all relationships start out as friends
so dont ding yourself there!
and, cmon, i doubt hes writing everybody!
so i think you should :)
[Someone has left a festive wrapped package outside your room. The tag, in Hurricane's sloppy handwriting, is addressed to you by name, and it reads: "Happy holidays!" There is also a bag of hand-made caramels.]
[Inside the package is a paintball gun and a note that reads "In case u want to double-weild next time" and a little smiley face. There are also some hand-woven slippers.]
[Inside the package is a paintball gun and a note that reads "In case u want to double-weild next time" and a little smiley face. There are also some hand-woven slippers.]
Edited 2020-12-15 04:40 (UTC)
Eclipse: All I'm going to say is I hope to the gods above and under the heavens that he didn't see that
Eclipse: For both your sakes
[ He kind of thinks Dva might have misunderstood what he was talking about specifically, but the thing is she wasn't exactly wrong, either, so perhaps there's no need to clarify himself there. ]
Eclipse: Thanks
Eclipse: Though I think I already know better than a lot of people here how transient things can be
Eclipse: I was gonna ask him regardless of what anyone else says, anyway
Eclipse: I just thought I'd let you know since you were the one who brought it up back when this started
[ ...
This is sometimes that's been in his mind since he saw what happened during the fanmail delivery, and what Dva just told him makes him wonder. ]
Eclipse: You don't have to answer this question if you don't want to, I'm just being nosy
Eclipse: Do you know what would make you happy?
Eclipse: For both your sakes
[ He kind of thinks Dva might have misunderstood what he was talking about specifically, but the thing is she wasn't exactly wrong, either, so perhaps there's no need to clarify himself there. ]
Eclipse: Thanks
Eclipse: Though I think I already know better than a lot of people here how transient things can be
Eclipse: I was gonna ask him regardless of what anyone else says, anyway
Eclipse: I just thought I'd let you know since you were the one who brought it up back when this started
[ ...
This is sometimes that's been in his mind since he saw what happened during the fanmail delivery, and what Dva just told him makes him wonder. ]
Eclipse: You don't have to answer this question if you don't want to, I'm just being nosy
Eclipse: Do you know what would make you happy?
It should.
You should never take your life for granted.
You should never take your life for granted.
...the emotional and mental stuff is much worse than the physical stuff.
Then is being numb turning out to be a blessing and a curse? A blessing - because you don't have to feel anything. But a curse - because you don't know what else you're not feeling because of it.
[ cups her face in her hands and groans. ] I don't even know anymore. I try not to think about this garbage until I'm forced to deal with it, because I really don't even know what to think, but the other stuff definitely stays with me longer than getting my arm ripped off or whatever.
Then let's pivot off of this issue and to something I noticed during fanmail---
You were able to give yourself a moderate injury with your own Heart Weapon.
You were able to give yourself a moderate injury with your own Heart Weapon.
Sponsored by Mountain Dew® & Doritos®; i
i know
i wish i could have thought of something else
but i didnt want anybody to see me cry
showing weakness in this place just isnt something i will ever feel comfortable doing
and feelings are something thats, like, the most dangerous thing that can be manipulated
but, yeah, it was dumb
im completely aware
and good :)
keep me in the loop eclipse!
and let me know how it goes~
its definitely changed since, like, the way beginning
i want to be loved
and i want to find somebody i can spend my life with
kinda corny, eh?
i know
i wish i could have thought of something else
but i didnt want anybody to see me cry
showing weakness in this place just isnt something i will ever feel comfortable doing
and feelings are something thats, like, the most dangerous thing that can be manipulated
but, yeah, it was dumb
im completely aware
and good :)
keep me in the loop eclipse!
and let me know how it goes~
its definitely changed since, like, the way beginning
i want to be loved
and i want to find somebody i can spend my life with
kinda corny, eh?
[ a private group text between herself, king, and intensity. ]
Sponsored by Mountain Dew® & Doritos®; cum 2 my rom asap
ned 2 run exprmnts
b/c fountn n stff
Sponsored by Mountain Dew® & Doritos®; cum 2 my rom asap
ned 2 run exprmnts
b/c fountn n stff
[Does her room have windows yet?
If not, he's knocking on the door to balcony]
If not, he's knocking on the door to balcony]
[ And King --
Is just knocking on their shared bathroom door tbh ]
Is just knocking on their shared bathroom door tbh ]
[ she does! i think... so she's going to open the window for intensity and then run over to the bathroom door to open it for king. ]
[ as soon as the both of them are let inside she just rips off the shag rug and slots the gem into the stone mechanism to move the slab aside, so they can go down into the temple. ]
Thanks for coming on, like, absolutely no notice, but I thought following our little trip~ it might be good to check a couple of things out.
[ as soon as the both of them are let inside she just rips off the shag rug and slots the gem into the stone mechanism to move the slab aside, so they can go down into the temple. ]
Thanks for coming on, like, absolutely no notice, but I thought following our little trip~ it might be good to check a couple of things out.
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