[ she's taking the time to type like a normal person, because she absolutely wants to get her point across. she gets the feeling that he's having trouble beliving a single word of it, because convincing him that he's anything but terrible has always been difficult. ]

[ but this is good.
this is real good. ]

[ she squeezes him for emphasis, ]

it's true.
you always do your best, hurricane, and that's all anybody can ask of you.
i know you wouldn't have wanted us to go out like that.
and if you were able you'd absolutely have helped.