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pre-monster° i was upset, b/c i had a fight with kohime and it sucked, so i went to the beach to sulk it out. king texted me to see if i was alright, and he eventually joined me at the beach. he had some 'feel better' booze with him, which i totally appreciated... and housed at my earliest convenience. no surprise, i got shit-faced, so like a completely level-headed person i stripped, having decided it was the perfect time & place to skinny dip.

post-monster° i woke up in the hospital with king & intensity in some kind of shitty 'nest'. initially aggressive it's possible to charm this feral side of... myself...

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pre-monster° not much going on this time. an objective game was running, but i was just helping people out and not actively participating. i approached levi for some help, since, he deals with this semi-regularly. i got a little nervous, but i have to find out more, so we decided to recreate what happened to force a transformation. pregamed cloud 9, because i hoped it'd take the ( literal ) edge off.

post-monster° cloud 9 also removed aggression. not sure if that's the reason i didn't attack dragon!levi or if it's because we're alike or... idk. ANYWAY: water? but baths & showers. salt water? but swam before. corruptions?

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pre-monster° coins & math & taxes; OH MY! it's bad game time, and nem made a joke some people thought was in poor taste right out of the game and the motherfucken shitshow began. there's NO teamwork and i have 0% faith in us making it out in tact, because everybody's just screaming about stupid shit. hss tried bussing itself, but avante said no, uno reversing and stating they'd bus themselves. i... agreed to help, since people were already calling for avante's heads. itwastheonlyway. 4 exile votes cast. p^l_ant^s _gre^w o_ut ^of ^av^a_nte. never forget. n_{e_{v_{e_r}}}. i_m ^gui_lty. ^{g^u}i_lt^y.

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pre-monster° i told kohime about the transformation and about how i'd like to better understand it and she agreed to help.

post-monster° it seems like i'm hostile if i'm threatened in some way, shape, or form, but if left to my own devices i don't really have a problem with anyone/thing around me. i need a reason of some kind, which honestly makes sense. i'm not exactly the sharpest tool in the shed, and i somehow got myself tangled in a bench ( don't ask ) but kohime helped me out of it, solidifying a positive relationship between us for the remainder of the day.

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pre-monster° a game in a garden. i couldn't keep my shit together, because i'm still not over it. i did feel her presence though, even if i couldn't see it. i... know...

post-monster° i learned i changed during the final hurdle and got into it with several members of heart. no one died, thank god. opening the final gate lead us to three other gates: horned, flamed, and ivory. all of heart went through horned, but for some reason i couldn't join them. i joined them in the tower sometime later, presumably having gone through a different gate. i had no memory and i joined hadassah in fighting people that threatened her. [ the rest of the page is torn. ]

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pre-monster° -i- have no control of this monster self of mine, but i want to know if someone else capable of it. i need to know. i have to know... and so an experiment...

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{ ♕ CORRUPTIONS.

{ sorcery ::

☠ mental: effects center around pride and delusion. ☣ ¹ a tendency to take unnecessary risks due to being certain that they're capable of handling them and coming out on top. ☣ ² always overestimating their own skill level, with a tendency to bite off more than they can chew. ☣ ³ the inability to admit that an idea or plan of their own creation could be faulty or flawed, because how could i make a mistake? ☠ physical: effects are uncanny. still organic, but they're organic in a way that strongly mismatches with human nature. e.g. reptilian, amphibian, insectile, etc. ☣ ¹ she has four tentacles* that burst out of her back at "random", mostly. it happens when she gets turned on. top 2 are sharp and bottom 2 are dull. pain&pleasure. ☣ ² transformation ( monster ). Removed via Holy Water on Day 314/315. { other 🐍 :: ☣ ¹ ectothermic. ☣ ² elongated canines ( curved fangs ). ☣ ³ robotic pupils have become permanently slitted. ☣ ⁴ she's got patches of scales all over her body - cheeks, shoulders, rise of her breast, thighs, etc. ☣ ⁵ tail. { other 💔 :: ☣ ¹ "tattoo" on chest. ☣ ² flower blooms occasionally and it bleeds pink. ☣ ³ blood has the subtle fragrance and taste of bubblegum. { other 👹 :: ☣ ¹ she goes into heat on every new & full moon. special moons, like lunar/solar eclipses (etc) amplify her arousal tenfold. ☣ ² she has a 'tattoo' on her womb that appears when she's in heat and it glows as she gets more and more turned on. ☣ ³ matchy matchy to hiryuu. { other 🐉 :: ☣ ¹ Mugunghwa (무궁화) are going to start sprouting in her hair like this & this. ☣ ² Her mood affects the flowers, so they'll change color accordingly. ☣ ³ It's also known as the Rose of Sharon or the Syrian Mallow, with a meaning of consumed by love. Removed via Holy Water on Day 314/315. { other 🐙 :: ☣ ¹ { other 🎶❄️ :: ☣ ¹ she becomes exothermic when feeling possessive. ☣ ² her scales start shimmering the position color of the person she's currently feeling possessive of. { other 💍🛌🪓 :: ☣ ¹ transformation ( monster ). { other 🐍💍🐇 :: ☣ ¹ burn scarring on legs. ☣ ² ( long ) forked tongue. ☣ ³ obligate carnivore. ☣ ³ persistent compulsion on the level of intrusive thoughts to serve the ȼȺᵾsɇ øf łɨȺɍ ħɇłł. ☣ ⁴ paranoia and/or fear in regard to becoming irrelevant — or worse, forgotten, and a mild need to be revered or outright worshiped. ( *four tentacles: kassogtha, cthylla, nctosa, & nctolhu aka kass, lila, tosa, & noct. ) ( moon 2020. ) ( mood color. )

Edited 2021-06-16 00:25 (UTC)

{ humanoid ::

☠ references: ☣ ¹ sheet. nsfw. ☣ ² naked. nsfw. ☣ ³ bust. sfw.

Edited 2020-07-29 23:24 (UTC)

Link; Session 3

{ monster ::

☠ triggers: ☣ ¹ because she's ectothermic now her body cannot deal with cold temperatures, especially for longer than normal periods of time. a dip in a chilly bath, fine, but swimming in a freezing ocean, not fine. she has to be careful in the winter months, because if she doesn't bundle up properly, then she'll likely trigger it. however, if she warms up, then she'll change back. ☣ ² severe emotional distress ( namely feels of the mad / sad variety ) but fear has ALSO been known to cause extremely volatile results. time, coupled with calming the fuck down, can and will help to change her back to normal.

☠ appearance: ☣ ¹ reference in black&white. ☣ ² reference in color. ☣ ³ size of a horse. this is a little misleading though! because while she LOOKS like she's capable of steamrolling you without so much as a second though she still weighs the same as she does in her humanoid form, so... not a whole lot. ☣ ⁴ she has little to no concept of her own size; kind of like how a great dane thinks it's a lap dog.

☠ other: ☣ ¹ in this form she's NOT in control. instead, she's no more than a feral tentacle dragon monster thing. ☣ ² retains some heart soldier senshi abilities: no heart weapon. ☣ ³ since she's not aware of her ocular implants she can't use the cameras intentionally; however, d.va is sure to find a number of random ass pictures after her transformations. ☣ ⁴ she doesn't remember anything. ☣ ⁴ she's started remember bits & pieces of things that take place during the transformation, since it's happened at least 5 times. this number was just something -i- had personally chosen, and each milestone she'll get better at retaining more. ☣ ⁵ relationships that d.va has do not carry over. it IS possible to form a relationship with this ( quasi-separate ) consciousness though, in which case THAT will be remembered. ☣ ⁶ she's more aggressive and highly territorial.

Edited 2021-04-11 17:31 (UTC)