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[420blazeit]

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13:37 pm

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" 미안하다!
I'm not here right now,
but leave a message and I'll get back to you asap!
♥ D.Va"

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[420blazeit]

[ she pokes his head. ] ...please don't run. Just tell me to stop. If I talk about some of this stuff it's going to leave me feeling vulnerable and I'd like you to just... be there...

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[selfpreservationist]

... alright. I won't run.

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[420blazeit]

thanks. [ ... ] I'm sure you might have noticed I... can't die. Powers were off in the Hotel and... yet...

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[selfpreservationist]

[reaches up to brush his fingers along her cheek, listening]

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[420blazeit]

I didn't know until a friend gutted me with a chainsaw and I spilled out half of my everything on the floor between us. I asked, no, begged him to end my suffering and, though hesitant, he eventually obliged. He beheaded me, but I... I could still feel everything. I thought it must have been a fluke, so the next round I carried on like usual... but then I wound up trapped in a room with a monster, a literal monster, and it tore my arm off, ripped me in half, killed my friends, and then slowly but surely ate me. [ she shuts her eyes and tries to catch his wrist. ] And then us... I couldn't stop them... [ she was dismembered and snacked on while he got choked out and ultimately killed. ] It's one thing to be able to walk off a fatal injury, but this is... being rendered useless and just... [ having to sit idly by while the people you love are killed... ] I hate it and I'm scared.

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[selfpreservationist]

Did everyone on Heart Soldier Senshi go through this?

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[420blazeit]

...everybody else on Heart Soldier is capable of dying under these circumstances.

It wouldn’t have been so bad if I wasn’t helpless, but I never want to have to sit there and watch anybody hurt you like that ever again. [ the worst torture, honestly. ]

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[selfpreservationist]

[wait, what?]

Then... why just you? Why were you the only one going through this? If it wasn't because of Heroes Never Die, then...

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[420blazeit]

...since our collective trip to the other hells I have been Hadassah’s Oracle. I can see things, sometimes, and it seems like they’re cryptic hints of things to come. [ maybe, it’s still all kind of confusing! ] I asked for more and... I guess I unknowingly got more and the some.

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[selfpreservationist]

Dva...

[this! is! bad!]

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[420blazeit]

[ yeahhhh. ]

I- I know. I’m pretty upset with past me too...

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[selfpreservationist]

[sits up abruptly]

I'm going to kill her.

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[420blazeit]

[ that’s the sweetest thing she’s ever heard. ]

I need to break our bond first, because, right now, pain inflicted on her is... I can feel it too. I’m pretty sure that’s what drove my monster self to attack you, because hurting her was hurting me and that was confusing and scary.

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[selfpreservationist]

I don't suppose you have any idea how to do that?

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[420blazeit]

...no. I planned to try to reach out to her though, because *everything*, so maybe I can try to convince her this isn’t in any way, shape, or form beneficial to her.

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[selfpreservationist]

You'd know her quirks better than I... but... that doesn't exactly sound safe.

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[420blazeit]

I’m not sure what else to do. I doubt just asking will net me anything, but it’s all I have right now...

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[selfpreservationist]

... fair enough.

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[420blazeit]

[ since he’s sitting up now she’s just going to bury her face in his shoulder. ] Do you have any suggestions?

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[selfpreservationist]

I wish I did.

... you'll tell me if there's anything I can do to help you.

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[420blazeit]

[ she reaches for his hand. ] I will. [ sighs. ] ...you know, if this didn’t, like, completely blow up in my face and the ability worked as intended in games like that I’d be the perfect protector.