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Sponsored by Mountain Dew® & Doritos®; sure i'm listening ... i hope you apologized to yugi and king

Sekhmet: I did. I'm determined to take responsibility.

Sekhmet: Since I came here, I was aware that I had certain dark and violent urges. I never knew where they came from, and I still don't. They terrify and disgust me. But they are part of me, even if I wish that they weren't. I was negligent, and didn't do anything to see if there was some way to mitigate them, and didn't realize that in a situation where my behavior was altered they could run wild like they did. And so, I did something horrible and cruel. I should have told more people that this side of myself existed, to warn them somehow, but it was difficult to talk about- and I naively thought it couldn't get that bad. But understand that I never wished for this to happen. I hurt people that you care about, and the guilt of my crimes will stay with me for as long as I exist. You do not have to forgive me, but I assure you that my remorse is real. I swear on my life, and on my Unit that it is so.

Sekhmet: I have taken steps to make certain that nothing like that happens again. I made a contract with a member of Taisho:

"Should Sekhmet of sensitIV attempt to act on the impulse of causing fatal harm to another person unbidden, whether by ability or physical force, whether directly or indirectly, she will be rendered immobile until she is no longer a threat. Her eyes and ears will shut and she will no longer be able to move or speak until the impulse has passed.

This clause does not apply in instances where she is in danger of fatal harm herself, or in acting with the intent of preventing fatal harm to another. Nor does it apply to her choice of voting in games produced by Imeeji Idol Productions.

Furthermore, in the event that Sekhmet of sensitIV should gain mental compulsion over another individual, she will be forbidden from attempting to harm that individual physically or psychologically, through powers, physical actions, or words, and from ordering that individual to harm another through the same means. Violation of this clause will trigger the aforementioned consequences."

Sekhmet: Just apologizing would not have been enough. I had to do what I could to make certain it would not happen again.

[ since she's got a lot to read over it takes her some time to reply. ]

Sponsored by Mountain Dew® & Doritos®; i am glad that you did this apologizing aside... i think this was the next step to starting to right the wrong i doubt this would have happened were the game circumstances different... because i'd still like to believe that you're still a good person and that these urges aren't going to be the thing to control your each and every action but you did hurt somebody close to somebody i care for which is something i won't be able to forget still... i'd still like to be friends and while i know the taisho contract is in place i will say this... if you ever hurt king ( or yugi ) again i may not be able to keep from returning the favor

[There's a few minutes of Sekhmet is typing... before she is satisfied with a response.]

Sekhmet: I understand. My intent is that even if I am driven out of control again, I will not be able to cause much harm. In fact, I may ask to add another clause to prevent lesser injuries, now that I am able to think more clearly about the incident. Even if I did not will those vile acts, it was I that carried them out, and I am determined to do what I can to make things right, and demonstrate that I shall not pose a danger in the future.

Sponsored by Mountain Dew® & Doritos®; i don't know how the others are going to feel about what happened, but as i have already said i really admire you taking the steps to do this, and potentially prevent another incident from happening. i really don't think most people would have bothered well, that's obviously true, since things of this nature have happened before... but anyway after things have calmed down a bit we should... we should talk in person maybe at the cafe :)

[i-is she being asked on a date?! well, maybe not, but it's hard to tell with this girl. She could almost laugh. She thought that HSS, to say nothing of the other teams whose members were actually killed, would hate her. Maybe that's just how she's predisposed to think. Maybe she thinks that's just what she deserves, even if she wants to be forgiven, wants people to like her. She's thought a good bit about whether she really is selfish since this incident, but they weren't exactly clear or objective thoughts so much as a cloud of self-loathing.

She still can't bring herself to say anything about King. She can tell that they are friends, and she doesn't want to somehow cause a fight between them. But she doesn't want to just abandon d.va either. She just needs a bit of time alone.]

Sekhmet: What I did, hm, I think it was also a bit selfish too. I do not want to feel the pain of losing myself again, and to live with constant dread of what I might do.

Sekhmet: I am truly grateful for your giving me the benefit of the doubt, and I admire your devotion to those you care about as well. You are a wonderful person, d.va. I would like to talk to you as well, but if it is alright, perhaps in a couple days, at least. As you have said, we need time for things to calm down. I need some time to rest and think about things.

[ she can be hard to read. it might not be all that obvious, but she wears a mask to keep her true feelings from being uncovered. she's still pissed and disappointed, feeling a bit betrayed, because she called sekhmet a friend, but she already said as much, so there's no point in constantly reiterating the same point over and over and over again. she doubts king is going to forgive her, and she might want to be careful if she's going to start talking about him. there is also a small part of her that wants to believe that she was also a victim of circumstance, because she had enjoyed the time they'd spend together, but from what she'd heard about the encounter... she can't be too sure... ]

[ if she hadn't done all of this she would have just written her off and that'd be that, but she's going to give her another shot. a second chance. but if she fucks this up, then d.va will take care of her personally. ]

Sponsored by Mountain Dew® & Doritos®; it's not selfish to want to be safe and that's part of the reason i'm giving you a second chance, sekhmet i cared about you if you were some nobody, then we wouldn't even be having this conversation anyway... a couple of days is fine yeah, me too see you around

[That's about what Sekhmet thinks- she couldn't exactly miss that promise for revenge if she slipped up, regardless of her cheerful attitude, or the qualifier that she "wants to believe." And why wouldn't she feel that way? It's natural to doubt somebody that did something as terrible as what Sekhmet did. In a third party position, she wouldn't be very forgiving, Sekhmet is certain, especially if somebody she cares about was hurt so brutally, so cruelly. Even so, probably, it can turn out okay. Not just with d.va, but for herself- she can just take things little by little, more confident now that some game gone wrong won't turn her into a monster again. And if she feels the lust for violence, the anger appearing outside of games, she'll just have to stay strong- a selfish strength, because she doesn't want to feel the pain of being broken and adrift without any pillar of self like she has for the past three days now. The future will be her guiding star and her determination, and she would just have to show everybody her honesty.]

Sekhmet: Yes. Take care of yourself.

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