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[ If she can see his expression from her huddle, it morphs into something perplexed. ]

What...? There's nothing "bad" about you, or anything you need to change.

[ Well other than the lack of self-preservation but can he really talk ]

...being with a number of people makes her feel... insignificant. And I... I can get that. I am... I spend time with a lot of people, and things have been... rough for her. To expect her to trust me is, well, it's stupid. I broke that trust during that stupid game with the guest stars, even if I hadn't meant to. [ she'd been deaf during the round that heart went hardx2 on bit, but she's a senshi so... ]

I just...
I like people. A lot.
Spending time with people and being close to people makes me really happy.

[ flicks a nearby rock. ] I guess I didn't realize how close I was with, like, everybody... [ until i dropped the two and a half people i'd gotten "srs" with. ]

Ah... I think I get it.

She wants you to set aside your other attachments and only be with her?

...mm, though I mentioned my relationships with you and Griffin, and she's seen me flirt with Intensity, since the two of them are kind of close or something. But there are a lot of other people I'm close with too. And even if we don't, like, go that far I'm going to be paranoid about what I can and can't do. Like, what if I upset her or what if she hurts them. [ scrubs her hands over her face. ] And then with the people I do want to go that with... there's one person and... I just feel kind of... trapped.

It's not that I don't like her, as I said, because I do. She's special to me. But this is... I just feel kind of lost and weird and I don't know what to do.

[ HmmmmmmMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM ]

Then let me ask you this:

Would it make you happy? If you did what she asked of you and tried to change who you are, cut off fulfilling ties to others to accommodate her, would it be worth it?

...she didn't ask me to. [ she said she'd do it, she said she'd try. but this is... it's difficult, and kind of feels impossible. it's not her. ]

But would it make me happy, ..? N- No. [ sighs. ] But it's not a matter of... is it worth it, because that... that's... [ she shakes her head. ] Her happiness is important too. I feel like I'm caught between a rock and a hard place, because I want to make her happy, because she absolutely deserves it, but... I guess I'm selfish for wanting to be and stay happy.

But that makes it sound like she doesn't make me happy at all. And she does. [ groans into her hands. ] Am I even making any sense?

So you already know it wouldn't make you happy... that settles my own opinion on it.

If it's necessary for you to sacrifice your happiness, and parts of yourself, to make her happy -- then maybe you're not the right person to do it. That doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you... it just means your wants and needs aren't compatible with hers. Or maybe you just need to find other ways to make her happy that don't require you to clip your own wings. Simple friendship isn't inherently worth less.

[ A pause ]

I just don't want to see you more unhappy than you already are. And you're already very unahppy.

[ And in King's very biased opinion, Kohime does not seem capable of providing the love and support D.Va would be losing in the process, though he wisely doesn't voice that bit ]

But it... it's not even that simple. All of the people I'm with make me happy... and for different reasons. But... I think it's limiting myself to just, like, one person, and the idea of that that's making me... unhappy... even though I'm not there yet, because she knows that I have you and Griffin and... [ trails off, looking up at him as he begins to say some of the same stuff, though elaborating and expanding on it. ]

...

[ my wants and needs aren't compatible with hers. ]

Maybe you're... maybe you're right. [ she hides her face in her knees. ] But it's not even that that's making me... unhappy. Not just that, I mean. I kind of feel like... like me and Griffin might be drifting apart... and maybe I'm reading too much into it, but he seems to have spread his wings to move on to... bigger and [ hng. ] better things...

[ "Bigger and better things" ]

. . . No.

[ He reaches under the truck to place his hand on her arm. ]

I don't know what's going on, but... even if you're drifting apart, he's not moving on to "bigger and better things."

[ she looks at his hand and then reaches to set her own on top of it. ]

I think he's kind of, ah, close with Jay now too. And that's fine. But then Sekhmet also told me that they're kind of thing now, because of her and Shrike. I guess I'm just kind of... surprised, especially since he'd never, like, ...he was always... [ he didn't know what buttsex was and she's pretty sure touching his own dick was against the church or something. ]

And maybe I feel stupid for having, like, [ her face scrunches. ] thought that all that stupid love at first sight stuff was real...

So he has a lot of people now... though you do too, don't you? Apparently you've gotten very close to Kohime.

So... is it that he doesn't give you much of his time anymore?

I do. I always did. And... I still do. I guess I just sort of thought that people... expected that of me and kind of figured that's me being me. I thrive on attention... [ and very clearly affection. ] Maybe I feel a bit blindsided that he's turning out to be the same, but I guess I can't blame him. Who doesn't love to be loved. And finding the right people is... something special...

...maybe. Even just checking in after a bad game would be... nice. It's been kind of rough lately. And that's not to say I don't appreciate you guys at Heart, because I do, you're all fantastic, and I really don't know what I'd do without you, but... maybe I just don't really know what an actual relationship entails...

I'm just a playgirl, after all...

I don't really know what an "actual relationship" entails either, but... that's probably something you need to decide with the other person. Have you talked to him about any of this?

No.

I thought I knew.
I guess I don't.

[ ... ]

Do I make you feel insignificant... by being like... like me...?

No. I'm in no position to complain about you having other attachments. You've always made me happy, and I only want the same for you.

Do you think I'd be under this truck if that weren't true?

[ she manages a pitiful sounding laugh as she reaches out to drag him closer. ]

No, absolutely not. But that's why there's nobody better than you.

[ He allows himself to be dragged, flopping down on the pavement next to her. ]

You'll figure this stuff out. I know you will.

Just -- promise to make the choices that are best for you, not someone else.

[ circles her tail around him and holds him close. ]

...alright. I'll do my best, King. [ gives his cheek a kiss. ]

Thank you.

[ Bundling her into a hug, which is perhaps the weirdest cuddle he's ever engaged in, considering they're under a monster truck parked in the middle of a Japanese highway, but whatever. ]

...want to get back into the truck and have at that coffee before it gets too cold?

[ Snorts a bit ]

That sounds way more comfortable.

[ she climbs to her feet and pulls him up with her. ]

So what do you think of this beast? Me and Hurricane got it. We've been waiting to debut it with a Live, but things have just been so crazy lately that we've been putting it off.

[ gets back into the truck. ]

[ He climbs in after her, glancing around the interior as he does so. ]

It's... a lot. Even more than the big square one, somehow.

[ she feels a bit better just getting to talk about all of this, so she manages a smile. ]

Well this is a monster truck and that other car is a hummer limo. One is for smashing other, much smaller cars and doing cool stunts and the other is for carting people around in style.

Oh, I see.

[ . . . ]

Are you going to run over a car in your live?

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