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13:37 pm

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" 미안하다!
I'm not here right now,
but leave a message and I'll get back to you asap!
♥ D.Va"

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... it isn't fair to place all these expectations on you. You carry so much weight already, and I... want to lighten the load for you, if I can.

But I am so... afraid.

If you’re afraid, then I’m not going to pull back in the slightest. I’m going to protect you from those who may have even just a passing thought of hurting you. I want you to feel safe, always.

...then maybe we can just talk about things. Keeping it all to myself is just... it’s a lot. That’ll surely help if you’re up for it.

... alright. If you ever need to release your demons, I'll be there.

[ she's got to laugh about his wording. ] I think you're the one that's going to need to be ready. [ combs her fingers through his hair. ] I don't want to crush you under the weird of it all.

[dryly]

I'm very good at running from things that scare or overwhelm me, if you hadn't noticed. So if it's too much, I'll just run. And then you'll know it was too much.

[ she pokes his head. ] ...please don't run. Just tell me to stop. If I talk about some of this stuff it's going to leave me feeling vulnerable and I'd like you to just... be there...

... alright. I won't run.

thanks. [ ... ] I'm sure you might have noticed I... can't die. Powers were off in the Hotel and... yet...

[reaches up to brush his fingers along her cheek, listening]

I didn't know until a friend gutted me with a chainsaw and I spilled out half of my everything on the floor between us. I asked, no, begged him to end my suffering and, though hesitant, he eventually obliged. He beheaded me, but I... I could still feel everything. I thought it must have been a fluke, so the next round I carried on like usual... but then I wound up trapped in a room with a monster, a literal monster, and it tore my arm off, ripped me in half, killed my friends, and then slowly but surely ate me. [ she shuts her eyes and tries to catch his wrist. ] And then us... I couldn't stop them... [ she was dismembered and snacked on while he got choked out and ultimately killed. ] It's one thing to be able to walk off a fatal injury, but this is... being rendered useless and just... [ having to sit idly by while the people you love are killed... ] I hate it and I'm scared.

Did everyone on Heart Soldier Senshi go through this?

...everybody else on Heart Soldier is capable of dying under these circumstances.

It wouldn’t have been so bad if I wasn’t helpless, but I never want to have to sit there and watch anybody hurt you like that ever again. [ the worst torture, honestly. ]

[wait, what?]

Then... why just you? Why were you the only one going through this? If it wasn't because of Heroes Never Die, then...

...since our collective trip to the other hells I have been Hadassah’s Oracle. I can see things, sometimes, and it seems like they’re cryptic hints of things to come. [ maybe, it’s still all kind of confusing! ] I asked for more and... I guess I unknowingly got more and the some.

Dva...

[this! is! bad!]

[ yeahhhh. ]

I- I know. I’m pretty upset with past me too...

[sits up abruptly]

I'm going to kill her.

[ that’s the sweetest thing she’s ever heard. ]

I need to break our bond first, because, right now, pain inflicted on her is... I can feel it too. I’m pretty sure that’s what drove my monster self to attack you, because hurting her was hurting me and that was confusing and scary.

I don't suppose you have any idea how to do that?

...no. I planned to try to reach out to her though, because *everything*, so maybe I can try to convince her this isn’t in any way, shape, or form beneficial to her.