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[420blazeit]

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13:37 pm

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" 미안하다!
I'm not here right now,
but leave a message and I'll get back to you asap!
♥ D.Va"

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[420blazeit]

I’m not sure why you think you have to hold me against my will. It’s not like I was the one planning on leaving. I wasn’t lying when I said this is exactly where I wanted to be, Kohime.

[ she’s not sure what she can do or say to fix this. nothing, probably. this was always going to be a problem, but she’s not sure how and why it suddenly came about when they were just having a good time. it must have been something she said. ]

So what plans have you got for us, hm?

[purrrnicious]

[Releases her.]

[420blazeit]

[ just stands there. ]

So?

[purrrnicious]

"So"?

You wanted me, here I am.

[420blazeit]

[ ... ]

I’m going to clean this stuff up, since I guess we’re finished eating.

I thought we could stargaze, but if you’re not into the idea, Kohime, then... I’m not going to force you to stay and be miserable.

[ goes to clean up, which doesn’t take too long. ]

[purrrnicious]

[She's just.




Standing there, she doesn't say anything. She's not really even tracking what D.Va is doing, either.]

[420blazeit]

[ as soon as she’s done she’s going to climb on top of the pavilion and look back to kohime. ]

Join me?

[purrrnicious]

[Bursts out laughing, just a little hysterical.]

[420blazeit]

...

[ she has no idea how to react to that. she just feels stupid at this point. upset and hurt. lays down on the roof, tail draped over herself. ]

[purrrnicious]

[It tapers off eventually into hiccups that sound a little like sobs, then she's quiet again, except for some rustling as she searches through her clothes for something.]

[420blazeit]

[ she hears her, but she doesn't peer over the edge. just stares straight up at the sky, though she's really got no interest in the stars anymore. ]

[purrrnicious]

[More rustling, then a pause––




And then a soft grunt followed by a sharp, long hiss.]

[420blazeit]

[ alright, now that's something she can't ignore, so instead of just looking down at kohime she's going to jump down and start toward her. ]

What are you doing?

[purrrnicious]

[welp tw for self-injury














because she's sunk a small knife into her arm, damn near through it, and has her ears pinned back and tail lashing as she stands with blood dripping onto the ground.]

[420blazeit]

[ she's going to rush over as soon as she sees the knife and the blood and grab her freaking wrist. ] What the fuck do you think you're doing?! [ squeezes, tight, giving her a tug until she's close enough for her to pull the knife out. ]

Kohime, answer me! [ it's a bit difficult one handed, but she'll be attempting to cut up her skirt, so she can make some makeshift bandages. ]

[purrrnicious]

[She jerks and gives another hiss, because that hurts and it makes the bleeding worse, and then she twisting to try and pull away.]

Isn't that your thing? Bleed for you?

Let go of me!

[420blazeit]

I am NOT going to let go!

[ but since she's clearly hurting her she will ease her grip. ]

Did doing this make you feel better?
Do you think hurting yourself helped?

[purrrnicious]

I said, let go.

[420blazeit]

And I said no.

I want you to tell me why...

[purrrnicious]

You tell me! This is your whole thing, right? It's supposed to prove something?

But it doesn't matter what I do, it won't make a difference!

[420blazeit]

If it's my whole stupid thing, then why the hell are you doing it?!

Stop saying that! Stop it, Kohime, stop it right! now!! Do you know how many times I could have walked away because of something like this! Instead of trying to make it work I could have just been like I'm done, but I refuse to do that, because I. love. you. and I think you're worth all the effort. Stop comparing yourself to other people! You're not other people and that's why I care about you!

[purrrnicious]

––Because I don't know what else to do!

You don't. Get it. You never get it!

[420blazeit]

And you don't get it either!

[ ...takes a deep breath. ]

I'm not like her, Kohime. [ said softly as she makes an attempt to bandage her arm with the shredded bits of her skirt. ] I'm not going to leave you.

Now, please, look at me.

[purrrnicious]

[She stabbed right through, so this is a 'needs stitches' kind of situation.]

No, you don't!

I don't know what kind of world you came from, but this one is like mine –– you don't get to have everyone, and everything! You get nothing and no one, and someday you'll have to choose.

[420blazeit]

[ she's still going to bandage it up until she decides if she's calling a sensitiv or intensity. fuck. she can't believe she stabbed herself this badly. ]

...

I think the only big decision any of us will be making is the decision of heaven, hell, or other. And I already made mine a long time ago, ...

I feel like I'm just incapable of making you happy. Like, we're doing so good and then... [ grits her teeth and huffs, sniffling a bit. ] You should know I'm not one to follow the rules or, like, give up and stuff, and who is going to tell me I can't have it all? Who's going to stop me?

I want you. I want them. [ but her endgame will probably net her no one. ]